State of Mind

Lately I’ve been melancholic...

I don’t know what brought me to this stage, but largely, I believe it is due to my single life. I’ve seen couples left and right, and that has made me think, “Why am I still unattached? Is there something wrong with me?” My friends tell me I’m picky, and some tells me I’m lacking confidence. Personally, I believe the air of self-confidence seems to be the biggest factor in my case.

Why do I think so?

I’ve not been in many relationships... I can count it with 2 fingers! Literally! But every time I fell for someone, it is always the same. I have this awful, possessiveness, and I try very hard to know what he does every day. I’ll message him every day, worry when he doesn’t reply me, and then my mind will start thinking too far. I don’t perceive that as a bad thing... it’s not as if I am trying to find out he has another guy out there. In fact, I don’t care if he does, as long as he stays true to our relationship. But my low self-esteem made me think I’m incapable of keeping a relationship, and that’s where the root of my problems lies.

I don’t know how I can rectify that flaw. It is just not something that I can brush off easily, although I’m trying very hard to not care. But by not caring made me think that I don’t seem to worry about my significant other. I can always pull the air of coolness, and say, “I don’t care if you got in an accident? I’ll just visit ya at the hospital later.” But that is not me. I care, and I try to show you that I do love him in my own ways. But when it seems so one-sided, it kinda hurts. But that’s always the problem isn’t it? There is always one who loves the other more.

If things are equal, then we won’t see all the arguments, dramas, and whatnot! It would be like a fairytale and we can say, “Happily ever after!”

But who am I kidding?

Anyway, to make me feel better, I went for a new haircut! Nothing is better than getting a new look, or the feel of new clothing on your own skin – yes, I’m a shopaholic, so sue me! But regardless, have a good day to all my faithful readers, and hope you guys are in better mood than I am!

The before!

 

 And after! What do you guys think!? xD

Colors of My Life

It’s been awhile since I’ve last updated yet again! But things have been okay! I mean, I’m enjoying my time with friends, studying instead of working, and meeting new people every time I head to the club! And speaking of club, I had the craziest time with my friends last weekend, and I do mean crazy!

When I go to the club, I usually take a shot of the good ol’ Bacardi 151. One shot of it was enough to make me tipsy enough to dance with my friends. But ohh man... The other night I had 3 or 4 shots of it! I was so fricking high that I didn’t even bother who I was talking to, or who I was dancing with! It was so fun! The feeling of letting loose and not bother with what other think of me! Standing there on the raised podium while I danced with my friends and stranger, I truly felt relieve.

I guess this is why I go to clubs...

Most of the time I bottle up my feelings and only tell what is necessary, and in most case, it’s usually nothing. I am a good person when it comes to listening to everyone else’s problem, but you won’t see me sharing my thoughts unless you ask me. But even then, I would have to see how close I am to ya! I won’t be spilling my guts out to stranger, unless it’s something I deem fit to be shared.

Regardless, this post is not about me! It’s dedicated to the two sisters that I stay with, Perky S and Notorious M! It was their joint birthday last Saturday and we went to a classy dinner with “colors” as our dress code – although most guys wore red. As mentioned, we went clubbing after, and needless to say, we had a blast! Both the gals, are the first few friends that I met when I first came to Canada, and no matter how many times I’ve looked back at it, I’m really lucky to have known them both. Sometimes, I think if I’m straight, I would have gone for one of them!

Then again, that thought seems wrong... I see them both more as sisters! And I dearly love them for who they are! If it weren’t for Notorious M, I would have been a loner when I came here, and if it weren’t for Perky S, I would not have all those late nights’ chats, and crazy good food for all our parties! If it weren’t for the both of them, my life in Vancouver would have been so dull.

WELL!

Let’s not belabour on all the ‘what ifs’ and ‘what not’! All that matters are, they are here now! I do not know what might happen in the future, but I’m happy as we are! Love ya both!

Our happy little family! There's more, but they aren't in the picture! xD

Haha more of us! See the splendour of our colors!?

Need a Change

Tuesday, 8th September

So it was the usual Tuesday night, except that, school has started for me! The first day of classes was quite uneventful unfortunately... Being the usual me, I did not attempt to speak with anyone at all. But I’m sure in time I’ll get to know my classmates! The guys are all seated at the other end of the room though, and I hate sitting at the back of the classroom!

Anyway, a friend of mine is leaving for Venezuela on Wednesday, so we decided to have a small party at his place! Perky S and my friend, Snowy Y, went and bought the ingredients first! I forgot what I was doing, but I did buy some clothing from Zara! After that, Snowy Y drove us to his place, and we were having so much fun preparing for dinner! I remembered Bebe F was laughing like crazy while wrapping something with a friend... I have no clue what they were doing though!

Why did I choose this title for my blog post you say?

Well, when I was at Snowy Y’s place, his room inspired me to redecorate my own apartment! Not the whole apartment per say, but just the space that is mine! Although Snowy Y’s place is small, he managed to make it look cozy and comfy. I mean, being a person who like interior designing, I should get off my lazy ass, and start giving my room a whole new look! But in any case though, I do hope it will turn out okay!

Upcoming Week

A whole new path is about to begin!

Next week, my new semester would start! And I have absolutely no clue on what to expect! I know I should be familiar with the start of a new school term, but strangely I have no idea what to expect. How would the new environment affect me? Who will I meet? Would I be happy with the new place? What if the people don’t think I’m a friendly guy?

In all honesty, I think most people believe that I’m an arrogant guy.

For those who never talks to me at least. I mean, I know I don't initiate a conversation usually, but seriously, I’m a friendly dude! I won’t bite! *Ahem* Much... But that aside! Most of my friends tell me that I am intimidating sometimes. I don’t know where that thought come from, but seriously, you can see me with the “wtf” expression, when they tell me that! I mean, I know I am more reserved, or quiet in person. But hey, I don’t give anyone the ‘go away’ look.

Still, I am hoping that this new chapter in my life would have an interesting twist! Too long have it been the same! But of course, I’ll try and make it interesting too! Can’t just cross my fingers and hope for the best! Things would never happen if we just let it be!

So... Make the best out of it!

 

Peace! Just a  scene in Vancouver my friend took when I got back! xD

Of weather and DotA game!

So I am back in Vancouver now, and let me tell you, it feels so good to be back here! I never thought I would say that... three weeks ago, I was dying for the food back in Malaysia! But then I realize I have to keep exercising, and the food plus the weather is not motivating me at all. That put an end to my food cravings!

I do miss my family and friends though... I miss my brothers, Monkey FZ and Naughty FC, my parents, who supported me with whatever I want to do, and of course, my best friends whose presence will be sorely missed. I miss the group of bloggers that I know, and too bad that I did not get to hang out as much with you guys! But during my stay in Malaysia, a certain something happens! If there’s any progress, I’ll be sharing it! If not, well, just another disappointment.

That aside...

I’ve quit most of the online games that I used to play. Lineage 2 was an awesome MMORPG, and if given the chance, I would play that game again. But unfortunately, it is just too time consuming and I do not have the time and patience anymore. World of Warcraft is also an awesome game... and through that game I’ve met a lot of Singaporean friends that I would love to see again, if given the chance. I’ve only met them once in person, but that one time gave an ever lasting impression for my brother and I.

But despite all the fancy talk!

I am still playing this game known as Heroes of Newerth! This is where it is going to get interesting... for the DotA players at least! It is a brand new game that is still on beta, but basically it is just DotA with the graphics on steroids! Despite what I’ve said, the game is actually REALLY good! And seriously, I won’t go back to DotA ever again because of HoN! I would show some screenshots if possible, but as per the terms and agreements, I cannot post anything until it has been released! But I can share these two at least!

That is a concept art of "Roshan" being attacked by the heroes!

Another concept art of more heroes!

So...! For those hardcore DotA players who wish to see the game with a better gameplay and graphics, I have 5 more invites to give out! If you are interested in this game, do drop me a message, e-mail, or anything! Take care for now!!

On second thought, here's an image of the HoN version of Sand King! xD

Bad Hair Day

So, today started out like any other days except that I have an appointment for a haircut at Shunji Matsuo, down at Midvalley. For a RM70 director hairstylist, I have to say, it is a lot cheaper than any other hairstylists I’ve tried in Vancouver. Knowing that it was my favorite hair salon 3 years ago, I did not hesitate to try out the new director hairstylist since Shunji himself no longer works there. But oh boy… what a disaster this turns out to be…

For the whole day, I am bitching, screaming, f**king complaining, and venting nonstop to whomever that is willing to listen to me. I swear, I would kill the guy who cut my hair, because, a) it is bad, and b) when your customer said it is too short as it is, you DO NOT cut more! I swear, I said explicitly that I just want to have a trim, and I want to keep my hair LONG! But NO! He has to cut it extra short! I was so close to breaking every mirror I see, and believe me, when I said I’m dead serious. My hair is something that I care more than my fashion sense, and a bad hairdo means worse than the disappointment I get from meeting people.

Excuse my swearing, but… bloody hell… bloody f**king hell!

So!

That aside, I have to say, I am officially bored with my stay in Malaysia. I do not know why, but somehow this trip back was not as fun as I thought it would be. However, I did have the honor of meeting Jino! A very friendly chap and I have to say, thanks for hanging out with me at the pasar malam! Also, it was awesome meeting bloggers that I have not seen for 3 years or more! Unfortunately, I had to leave early that day… I hoped I didn’t miss much!

Despite my negative start, I did enjoy clubbing last Saturday night. I do not remember who was the blogger that claimed Malaysia has no good looking guys nowadays, but regardless, I have to say you are sadly mistaken! Last Saturday, I was able to follow my friend to Marketplace, and I must say… WOW! The atmosphere was great compared to the club that I often go in Vancouver, and I have to say there are just so many eye candies out there! I can get full, just by looking at the yummilicious guys in their fitted T’s and jeans. Somehow it made me think, “Damn! Why did I choose to study in Vancouver?”

In any case though, I have to cut my trip short, and instead of returning on the 3^rd of September, I am now leaving on the 21^st of August! I am both sad and happy for this change. I’m happy because I have so limited freedom here, and I hate the fact that it is so annoying to get anywhere – compare to being in Vancouver! I’m also missing my friends in Vancouver, and somehow, I am thoroughly bored lately. However, I’m sad because I am sure I will miss my families and friends here in Malaysia. I know I don’t show much, but hey, I’m a sentimental guy at heart!

So yeah, that’s all the update for now! Take care to anyone who is still visiting this blog!

"Home Sweet Home"

A few days ago, I was sitting in a room that is furnished with a cupboard, a comfy bed, a decked table with my books lining every shelf, and of course, my crazy computer that is built for gaming. But today, I found myself lazing in a room with nothing, a nosy brother who keeps kicking me off his computer, and bored out of my mind because my friends aren’t around 24/7.

So, what does that means?

For clarity sake, I shall use these pictures to elaborate!

I went from Vancouver International Airport...

To this one here!

Yes, I’m back in Kuala Lumpur, and I came back without telling my family and most of my friends. It was awfully fun when I got to surprise my mother. She practically screamed when she saw me and that made my day. But with the absence of my friends, I felt bored and I can’t seem to enjoy my time here, as much as I thought I would be. Then again, it’s just the beginning of the vacation. Maybe it will turn out different in a few more days. But I really do miss my friends back in Vancouver.

Regardless, I have things that I need to do here!

First on the list, food! Gawd, there’s so many things that I need to eat before I head back to Canada! Assam laksa, char kuey teow, ipoh kai fan, pan mee, wanton mee, gahhh! The list goes on! Besides that, I would love to meet a few bloggers that I have been chatting with! You guys know who you are! And if you’re reading this, I want free food – kidding! I’ll most likely end up treating you guys! So make some free time if you can!

Anyway!

The most important thing that I must do for this trip: clubbing! I’ve never been to any club in Malaysia, with the exception of a bar (or was it a lounge?) But regardless, from the stories I hear and read from other bloggers, I absolutely must see for myself! I love it when I spend time with my friends at the club, back in Vancouver. I have no clue how it would differ here, but I am keeping my fingers cross and hope for the best! In any case though... Marketplace and Oblique, here I come!